ummm, so this is life?

Earlier this weekend I started getting very down on life and the system of our world. As previous blogged, this summer I will interning. What I may have failed to mention is that fact that this internship will be unpaid. Hours and hours per week will be put in by yours truly... and I will earn absolutely no money. I walked into the internship interview knowing this. I accepted the internship knowing this. "This internship will be helpful towards my future", "it's a stepping stone to the real world", this what I tell myself to reinsure that making absolutely no money this summer is a good idea. 

BUT, what if...what if this leads absolutely nowhere? WHAT IF, at the end of the summer, these growling hours, and all this hard work, I still am jobless after my college graduation comes around?

I'm a little down on life. 

The system of our world sucks. Money rules all and unfortunately this is the fact of life. This summer I will work my ass off, gambling that it will get me somewhere. And now that I come to think of it, same goes for my entire college career. I am continually working hard and putting in time just as sheer hope that I have a career and realistically money for my future. 

So why am I complaining? Why the "boo hoo" that I have to work hard simply to get a chance at being the stereotype of "successful"? I am sad because I already have everything I could ever want. I have a perfect family, healthy relationships, and I am in love. People always say it's not about money, but it's bullshit. It's all about money. Take it from a chick that has everything else. Love won't buy you food or shelter. Love won't buy you clothing or shoes. Come to think of it, love won't buy you a damn thing. 

At the end of the day, I will keep working hard. I have to survive. Come to think about it, I'll even stay optimistic about my hard work the path it is taking me down. But in an alternate universe where I, Jordan Jackson, ruled the world, things would be different. Your job would be something you loved, not something you did to make a fat pay check. Time wouldn't be spent putting in extra time to make extra money, it would be spent doing things and being with people who make you feel inspired and healthy on the inside and out. 

This post has absolutely no conclusion, and it may not even have a point. This is simply something I needed to say, something I wanted off my chest. If it really was all about love, trust me, I would be the richest of the rich.